i miss you

know what?

i miss my tears~

seriously~

"a hysterical shout...

a vent for my desperate emotions...

a reliable shoulder..."

i think that's what i need for the time being...

or maybe something that able to set me free from "interuption"~

不是别人

在这个只有自己懂自己的世界里，

我害怕尔虞我诈；

我看惯猫哭耗子；

我厌倦美丽就是实力；

我厌恶落井下石；

我憎恨两面人性；

我讨厌互相猜疑。

原来，

转了十九圈，

知心人就是，

.......自己。

我后悔了吗？发现自己越来越冷酷。

我难过了吗？原来你我都不瞭。

我变了。但改变也让人觉得我更残酷了。

因为你看到的是，一只只会窝在别人脚下的小猫蜕变成一只想要吃人的老虎。

而我，并不想成为老虎，只想做个大家都开心的中间人。

原来，一切只有我在希望。

自然而然的，这个希望，随着我的眼泪消灭了。

我后悔了。因为我在意。

我难过了，因为我知道你们不懂。

只怪我太高攀自己的能力了。

oh~ my memories

ok~

i'm just back from camp...

woo~

is just that nice and tired...

some participants even slept for 20 hours!

i can't!!

because have to sit for exam today...

-.-

the camp was amazing...

hehe~

the most unique about this camp is the ECs...

3 EC per day...

great~ for the participants...

especially the "chui mian"-noob-counting game...LOL

and first time saw participants don't want to get back to sleep even we asked to...

haha~

hmm~

i didn't get my cheeks wet because no one say tough tough words...=)

the games were great...

obstacles kinda challenging...

the sad thing is i didn't manage to involve in treasure hunt and station games..='(

know miri people from this camp...

although not close with them and they also don't know who am i...

haha~

still felt glad to know them..=)

many many funny things from this camp...

like who and who, or what and what....

is all the fantastic parts of this camp...

i want those photos..=p

(where's tq dinner's?-.-)

sometimes it just so sweet

i just can't stop my desire to get closer to it...

it's just like a magic-spell...

of course~

it's a nice and wonderful one...=D

wish the camp can start and end perfectly...

i'm looking forward for the amazing's games~

just hope i won't have my cheeks wet on the last day...=p

anyway...

next week is the week i have to vomit all-the-stuff-i-swollen-ed out...

woo~

"massage your fingers before you start the paper~"

tiredly.insanely

lately...

it seem likes everything drove me crazy-ly..

i know it doesn't show apparently...

but deep in my heart...

i felt so damn disappointed,unhappy,sad, miserable,missing and confusing...

no one knows,no one cares~

everything and everyone seems so far and strange for me...

i miss my past times...

i realized that nothing can back to the most precious moment...

because it was just a forgettable past...

even though i treasured it hardly...

but does anyone bother about it?

the relationship and the bonding are no longer exist...

maybe it still bonded...loosely~

sometimes i felt difficulty to walk forward....

even it's a pathway which i most confident in ...

there's no more persistent in my mind...

so don't be surprise when i change my mind...