totally tired....

why im tired?
*exhausted*
1st: can't drive...
2nd:i miss my favourite basketball game...
3rd:my heart bleeding...
aikx...
disappointment and loneliness...
made me fall down today...
my tears are ready to drop...
but i controlled it...
because i promised myself to be happy everyday...
but i failed to manage it...
i want a reliable shoulder beside me...
and a good-listener...
T_T