i hate myself

i really hate my own attitudes..
terrible "kuan"...
aikx...

im hot-tempered... i can't think wisely... im not open-minded... i can't accept people's critics...

i hate who i am now!!!

depressed with what i having now...

an ordinary appearance [shortie,black-skinned,ugly face,fatty]...

arghh!!!!!!!!

sometimes i really don't what happen to myself...
if i heard something...[jealousy maybe]
i can be very moody although it's just a very small matter or just nothing...
despite im ready to recover my mood...
i won't show it to the people around...
i will just keep myself cool and stay in my moody circumstance...
but i really don't know why i have this kind of bad behaviour...
even myself will consider this a evil action...

so i have to apologise to my friends...
for facing and "accepting" this kind of friend...
im sorry~~