do so or not?

1st semester sooner end up with a BIG full stop...
2 more weeks...
i thought i can "welcome" the next semester happily...
but now...
not really...
why?
a BIG BIG question mark in my heart...
after analysing.................................
finally i concluded my answer...
im hate to know the answer because it seem so idiot and stupid...

a big difference and shuffle in 2nd semester...
and i might pass by something which i really want to?
i don't know...



stop confusing me