do so or not?

1st semester sooner end up with a BIG full stop...
2 more weeks...
i thought i can "welcome" the next semester happily...
but now...
not really...
why?
a BIG BIG question mark in my heart...
after analysing.................................
finally i concluded my answer...
im hate to know the answer because it seem so idiot and stupid...

a big difference and shuffle in 2nd semester...
and i might pass by something which i really want to?
i don't know...



stop confusing me

下午想了想。。。
我好像醒了。。。

曾经以为自己喜欢上他。。。
但好像不是这么一回事。。。

其实对他我一点感觉也没有。。。
甚至有点讨厌他。。。

原来现在的我。。。
那个位子还是空的。。。

common.not anymore

my "buddies" told me...
both of us have commons...
wearing the same W...
same height...almost
sometimes wearing same colour of T...
dislike the same model of laptop...
hmm~~
it's just coincidence right?o.s in my heart
of course...
i imagined lots in my heart...
but...
im sure these will only happen up to today...
then everything will just end...
why?
im not sure...

maybe you "ruined" your image when you showed that kind of "face"...
or maybe others...
anyway...
from now on...
you will totally no effect for me anymore...
really NO...



it's just a speechless post...
just want to tell my "buddies" about my feeling...
not dare to tell you guys face-to-face...
so just post it here...

50：50

first...
i want to congrats to my friends who going for JPA...
i felt happy and proud of them...
anyhow...
they will be leaving us soon...
in 2 months times...maybe
sure many will feel sad about that....
me too...when the scene we gathered popped out in my brain
instead of dropping my tears...
i try to think wisely....
i believe everything will be just great for me...

good luck for them and FRIENDS FOREVER




for those who cried because thinking they will missing a friend:

天下无不散之席。。。
天下无人可陪己长久。。。
就算是自己身边的亲密家人、友人。。。
不会有一方能承诺彼此永远在一起。。。
因为每个人都有自己的人生计划。。。
深造读书、结婚生子。。。
因为每个人都会走到人生路的尾端。。。
生老病死。。。
这些不管我们有多么不愿意。。。
不管我们有多么不甘愿。。。
它们都会降临在我们的生活中。。。
现实总是残酷的。。。

曾经看过一篇作文。。。
说到：
“不要因为失去而难过，应该因为拥有而快乐；
因为自己拥有的一切原本就不属于自己，可以拥有是我们的福气。。。”

“不要因为短暂的分离而感到忧伤，应该因为他们的成功而骄傲；
因为我们在一起快乐的片段会打败内心的悲痛，相信我们还会一起创造更美好的回忆。。。”

也许到离开的那一天。。。
内心的情绪不受控制。。。
眼看你的离开的背影。。。
听着远去的脚步声。。。
眼泪掉了。。。
我们抱头痛哭。。。
嘴里说出句句的不舍却充满鼓励彼此的话。。。
这时。。。
告诉自己：
“放手吧，为了更美好的未来；
祝福吧，，为了更挑战的生活；
等待吧，为了听见那熟悉的脚步声；
看到的不再是你的背影，而是我们久违的笑容。。。”

invisble

i hope you are invisible...
totally "disappear" in my life...
or never appear in my life...
or don't ever let me know you "done that"...[maybe you not "doing that"]
gosh!!!!!!!!!!
what am i guessing?
what am i aspecting?
what am i waiting?

im scare~~i miss~~

this few days...
have a feeling...
im scare to lost...
im scare to miss...
im scare to disappear...

i appreciate what im having now...
but seem like what i love are getting further apart from me...
what i hope...
all of them will not left me alone...
never~~
please~

jz be happy

im love to laugh everyday...
because i try to be happy...
but i realise that my heart is crying...

i still remain my smile on my face...
because i don't have the power to judge my fate...
i can't foresee when my life end...
so i decide not to dumb my happiness until the end of my life...

愚蠢

期待着不可能等到的幸福。。。
值得吗？
期待着不可能回应的声音。。。
保障吗？
有时期待是一种愚蠢的动作罢了。。。
而现在的我。。。
就是这么一回事。。。

[哭吧。。。]

人常言哭是女人的天性。。。
面对问题时女人总用哭来解决问题。。。
这是常人会认同的事。。。

尤其男人。。。
他们都认为这是懦弱的行为。。。
他们总不轻易在他人面前表露自己的痛。。。
他们总不善于表达他们的不愉快。。。
他们不会哭。。。

其实哭只是女人用来把烦恼暂时放下的一个武器。。。
哭可以帮她们把心里的痛一一的解放出来。。。
好让自己的心可以更清晰地接受理智的讯息。。。
更坚强的面对自己的问题。。。
让自己做出更正确的决定。。。

所以哭已不再是懦弱的动作了。。。
它是女人变坚强的武器。。。


by: huili

遗憾。。。

今早的我还没完全醒来...
就去了学校...
还未进到学校就看到及听到他们开心的声音...

进去之后...
看到他们带着大包小包的...
心理的滋味更是糟到极点...

sorry...
i don't mean to show my emotion to you...
i really felt sorry...
because i can't go camp with you all...
i know maybe this will be our last gathering...
i do nothing...
T_T

moody and unhappy day...

im really unhappy today...
i really schooling nowadays...
i hate to face those poor poor results...
i really dislike the feeling...

i hope i can finish spm immediately...
how glad if it is tomorrow...
then i no need to go for school...
i can do what i like...
i can be free!!!

176 storyzz...

今天心冷了...
不再有以前的感觉...
不再有以前的热情...
对他...
不再有仰慕的感觉...
不再有心动的感觉...
对它...
不再有热衷的感觉...
不再有关心的感觉...
而对你们...
也不想再扮演付出的角色了...
只想有家人的关爱...